A Primal Scream of Love

Sitting here in America on 07 November 2024, the world is on my mind.

Again and again, I have seen and processed the harm caused by love-starved humans who believe the whispered lies about an “enemy” from the greedy lips of someone they want to like them. This becomes especially lethal when that listener also operates primarily from a sense of self.

Meaning, there are few things more powerful than a person craving love. But for whom is the difference: For themself or for those they already touch? Or for true love – a connection across this planet, the sort of love that warms in exchanging a smile with a stranger you’ll never see again.

I crave that second kind of love. As I have as I’ve spent the last many hours adrift. In the waves. Not away from anchors, but without the ability to steady. Reaching for those I could, and yearning, silently but without apology, for those I could not.

Then, today, I saw that Chytomo has featured The Factory by Ihor Mysiak, translated by Yevheniia Dubrova and Hanna Leliv as their Book of the Month. And the primal scream inside me just raised its hand. A tension I didn’t know how to resolve.

Now I know how to let it out.

Let’s talk about Love.

I am going to use the term “crazy” understanding that it can be hurtful. Yet, I am a mentally disabled, neurodivergent person who has suffered from both anxiety and complex post-traumatic stress disorders since I was very, very young, and have lived a life of being warned, even scolded, not to be crazy. Not to be weird. Not to be too much. Not to make people uncomfortable.

In almost all cases, what these terms meant were:

  • To show vulnerability.
  • To show emotion.
  • To express love.

In other words, to be authentic.

I’ve talked in other places about oppression (and will continue to do so) but oppression is really just greed. Some people want more than others. This requires false hierarchies, which requires a dampening of any empathy or expression that might lead to the dissolution of those falsely drawn lines.

So – waves hands around for this time – authenticity, the pure acceptance and expression of love for our true self and that of others, is the antithesis of oppression.

And no, that doesn’t mean being yourself or telling your stories prevents oppression on its own. It means that the societal normalization of authenticity does, eventually, do that, because it fosters empathy and communication while debunking the false rules manufactured to hold people down. And we have more power, so much more power now to do that, in a world that’s connected. They know that. So, so must we.

Now, what does this have to do with a Book of the Month?

Back to crazy. Марина (Maryna), the wife of the late author Ihor Mysiak (he was killed at age 29 by Russia), and I connected online. We don’t speak each other’s languages, so we were cautious regarding translations by “the robots” as I call them. Because of the need for directness, I’ve tried to speak directly and without idioms, and so it came about that Maryna said that she can see that I am crazy, and that Ihor was crazy too. Good crazy.

I was … thrilled to hear this, because I had sensed it. I think it was why I connected so much to this author, this poet, this story. If I am too much? Ihor was very much too much.

I think poets tend to be. And all my life, I’ve also been a poet. I’ve just not shared those poems. That, soon, will change.

As for Ihor, the writing of his novel is subtle. Clever. He weaves concepts of joy and family and purpose through this quirky tale of a dilapidated factory.

I am in love with his work. His words. His vision he saw in them. His radiance and pure belief in people. In Love.

It’s why I adore this novel so deeply. It is many things. It is highly a metaphor for military life, through the lens of a volunteer defending one’s home. But it is an absolute reflection on life, death, happiness, joy, authority, and rebellion.

Putting all this eloquently is this review by Anastasia Herasymova of Chytomo.

I love this line:

“The English translation of The Factory, accomplished by translators Yevheniia Dubrova and Hanna Leliv and published by Atthis Arts with the support of the Ukrainian Book Institute, is not just a literary work. It is a tribute to Mysiak, and a reminder that, although creative work does immortalize its author, it does not reduce the pain and bitterness of losing them.”

Yes, joy. Yes, pain. Our grappling between them, between what we can’t change and what we could.

Ihor himself was saying this within the pages of The Factory. It is an exploration of the layers that make us alive, even in the presence of death, without toxicity: positive or negative.

That he wrote such an exploration, with hope and reflection, and then saw his friend Dage killed in the siege of Azovstal (yes, a factory) and then was killed himself, tries to break my heart, but it cannot. It wounds it, bleeds it, pulls it, weights it, lifts it, fuels it. Because Ihor was crazy. And I am crazy. Good crazy.

And I will scream for every day I have left alive, the same scream I know that he would join in with me – that we believe in Love. We believe in people. We believe in humanity. In authenticity. We will not hide our poetry. We will not hide our Love.

We will fight for Love, this time and every time. Whatever the consequence.

I do not have a conclusion for you. I am mindful of safety and the difference in each of our situations. I do have that conclusion for me. And I will scream it again, and again. Love.

Love. Love. Love.

Messy love. Fierce love. Love we might survive, and might not.

But our love. Our connection. Our world.

This is what I will do – this is what our press, Atthis Arts, will continue to do.

Both of our book releases this month deal with these themes of grief and life, at a time I think many of us will need these reflections. And both from very different cultural perspectives, both through the genre-blending art of the fantastic, and neither through the eyes of North American or Western European fantasy. These books found me when I needed them.

Perhaps you will need them too. I hope that you enjoy them.

With my love – my deep, unapologetic love –
Emily.
07 November 2024
Ferndale, Michigan.

Here is what we have to offer you this November. I hope you will give these stories and creations a look. And if you appreciate what our press is doing, please follow us where you follow things, and please let people know!

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Gift-Buying Guide: Support Indie Fiction!

I thought I’d put together a list of ways you can support our small press, Atthis Arts, by buying our books for gifts. Remember: this doesn’t just apply for the end-of-year holidays, but also for birthdays, mothers/fathers/parents day, valentine’s day, teacher gifts – or anyone that deserves a special thank you! (That can include gifts for you, too. You do deserve it.)

Hard to shop for – or just loves reading!

Not sure what someone reads? We have three short story collections with all different types of stories! Each is very short, not much commitment. So if they don’t like one story, the next will be different. These are really fun and are just perfect for gifts! Stories from all over the world; they are so fun.

As Told By Things – 25 stories told from the perspective of inanimate objects. A quirky collection for sure.
https://www.atthisarts.com/dd-product/as-told-by-things/

Five Minutes at Hotel Stormcove – 59 stories taking place over the course of five minutes, past, present, or future, all at the same, legendary hotel.
https://www.atthisarts.com/dd-product/five-minutes-at-hotel-stormcove/

Community of Magic Pens (2020, pre-order now) – Stories evoking the idea of magic pens – and if you pre-order a print copy for a gift, you’ll get included an ebook for yourself. Limited-edition hardcovers also still available!
https://magicpens.backerkit.com/hosted_preorders

Would enjoy a sweet page-turner about life, friendships, and each other
The last president of the SFWA, Cat Rambo, referred to this book as “one of the best fantasy books of 2019” and blogger Maria Haskins listed it on her 12 recommended novels of 2019 list. I really can’t emphasize enough how good we think this book is. A really solid, wonderful gift, and you don’t need to be a fantasy reader – it’s really a contemporary, literary book with a backdrop that includes ghosts. Sweet, funny, serious, all at once. See the page for more, including a summary and reviews from Andrea Hairston, the San Francisco Book Review, and more. The Traveling Triple-C Incorporeal Circus by Alanna McFall –
https://www.atthisarts.com/dd-product/the-traveling-triple-c-incorporeal-circus/

Would enjoy an easy-reading, ghostly feud
Our best-selling titles, readers have loved the story of Dr. Anna Roberts, a free clinic doctor who realizes she can interact with ghosts. Set in Kansas City, we think the juxtaposition of a doctor’s clinical mind with the paranormal elements of an ancient ghost feud is pretty awesome. And there is a full three-book series for you to give all at once, or be set for the next three gifts. : ) The series is called Anna’s Nightmare and the three books (in order) are When They Come Calling, When They Come True, and When They Come Alive by Sarah Fleming Mountford –
https://www.atthisarts.com/dd-product/when-they-come-calling/

Loves graphic novels, art, and awesome storytelling
Have you seen the stunning art of our upcoming graphic novels? The art speaks for itself (it really does) and I will tell you that the author is a wonderful, immersive storyteller as well. I am so excited for these. Available in 2020, these will make amazing gifts, and original art and limited-editions are still available! Remember with our pre-orders, you can order a print copy for someone and get a digital copy for you! Icarus and Jellinek by Gregory A. Wilson with art by Áthila Fabbio –
https://icarus.backerkit.com/hosted_preorders

For kids! (or for anyone; they are really charming)

We love our middle-grade titles. The exact age depends greatly on the reader (these would be perfect for many adults), but usually 9-12ish.

This first book, a short, sci-fi novella that’s short and thus really great to read together, is a fun, hopeful space adventure – written by a 12 year old! I love this book so much. A Spatial Surprise by Symthasree Sarojini Koganti – https://www.atthisarts.com/dd-product/a-spatial-surprise/

The next, a trilogy that will complete in 2020, is a classic, fantasy with modern twists and a “big kid” feel. Not overly violent and without romance, the trilogy (which keeps getting better as it goes along, by the way) features young Anna Lieay as she battles the wicked wraiths, along with her close-knit army unit, and tries to save humanity. When my nephew was 13, he called the first book the best book he’d ever read! Descent of Shadows Trilogy by Ryanne Glenn –
https://www.atthisarts.com/dd-product/descent-of-shadows/

What about a really just fun, weird, quirky adventure? This adventure fantasy is full of big imagery, big imagination, and two of the most fun children’s characters I’ve ever read. The book is available as three chapter books or one omnibus – and we’re working on having the whole trilogy in audiobook as well! (Part 01 is available in audio now.) Foreverafter: An Odd Adventure by K.J. Quint –
https://www.atthisarts.com/dd-product/foreverafter-an-odd-adventure/

What about you, Emily? Don’t you write too? Isn’t this your page?

Aww, I do have a thing I’m working on. Ten unique little novellas – finishing up this October. They look super cute on a shelf and you could buy them in two sets: 01-05 now and 06-10 next year. My books are experimental fantasy, with themes of connectedness, non-violence, identity, friendship, and freedom. The readers for this serial are very devoted; I get private messages frequently from people telling me how much the serial has meant to them. Buying them for yourself or for gifts would make me very happy. And since it’s a serial, you can try it in parts. (By the end of Part 02 you will know if you’re going to enjoy it.) Diamondsong by E.D.E. Bell –
edebell.com/diamondsong

And you can order signed copies of Diamondsong or my first four novels at http://store.edebell.com/. (A few numbered copies are still available of each!)

What about other presses?

Yes, great question! Our books have a definite vibe to them (https://www.atthisarts.com/about-atthis-arts/ describes this more) – if you’re looking for something different, send us a note at atthis@atthisarts.com and we can see what we can come up with. A few quick ideas: (There are just so many, I’ll try and add more over time.)

For top-quality horror, science fiction, and fantasy, check out Apex Publications at https://www.apexbookcompany.com/ – I really enjoyed Pimp My Airship, a witty afrofuturistic steampunk taking place in alternate Indianapolis. And for exciting tales and awesome collections, check out DefCon One Publishing at http://www.defconone.com/ – did you know I have a story in I Didn’t Break the Lamp? (And I’m really proud of it.)

Love sexy romance with rock stars and glam? Check out Rock Star’s Heart by Kella Campbell –
http://kellacampbell.com/rockstarsheart/

Prefer urban fantasy? Author T.J. Lockwood has three gray morality books for you –
http://mechapandapublishing.com/catalogue/

What about YA? Oh, good point! Turns out my main Diamondsong editor also writes hopeful, beautiful young adult fantasy –
http://catherinejonespayne.com/

And more middle-grade, this lovely series features child angels and a whole world of wonder, and is suitable for both religious and secular readers! The Rafe Ryder Series by L.L. Reynolds –
https://llreynolds.com/rafe-ryder-and-the-well-of-wisdom/

I hope this was helpful! Thanks so much for supporting indie fiction!

♥ Emily.

P.S. Contact us at sales@atthisarts.com if you’d like a price break on multiple copies.

Hotel Stormcove: Stats and Thoughts

With the stories selected and now moving through the editorial and publication process, I thought it would be fun to talk some more about the submissions that we received. You may know, I’m a former engineer, so yes I love Excel, and yes, I wanted to gather some stats. Let’s do stats! And thoughts too, because I do have a thing for musing as well.

First, the submission period was overwhelming. The response was overwhelming. We received submissions in the hundreds. Sure, this is all a good thing, but it was so much more intense than I expected.

Another thing that really got me was the way the highly-interpretable framework I’d created morphed into a specific character. I’ll talk about this more in the intro to the book. But Hotel Stormcove has turned into its own character—sort of a weird, interdimensional anchor that serves as both a location for amazing stories but also a metaphor for refuge, compassion, and connections. Once I realized that Hotel Stormcove was now a distinct good guy, I fussed a bit with the authors (I do know that was annoying, but I hope it made a difference) to calibrate that across the collection. People can be good or they can be bad (don’t worry, there’s still crime and mayhem), but the metaphor of coming together and helping each other out is there, ever-present in the stories. I am thrilled with that aspect, one I didn’t anticipate or at least completely consciously design.

So—I have to start with my most sincere thanks to the writers. The stories I received and read were wonderful. And, as a writer, I know what heart and energy goes into writing fiction, so I know that you honored me with a piece of you. I didn’t take that lightly, and so, the number of notes I had to send letting people know that story wouldn’t be included was hard. I know that’s how it works, but also as a writer, I do understand. I really hope that people with an unpublished Hotel Stormcove story either benefited from the experience and/or will find it a different home. For some stories, that may be publication elsewhere, for others, it will be sharing it with a friend. It’s art, it’s beautiful, and I thank you so much for your time and the honor of receiving so many great stories.

Considering that our last collection was mostly submitted to by US and Canadian authors, I was excited to see that this collection had been shared all over Earth! It’s hard to explain what an honor this is, to know you wrote some goofy hotel theme, and someone is sitting in Malaysia writing a story to it.

While it depends a little how you count it, we received submissions from 24 countries on 5 continents. (Unexpectedly, we had no submissions from South America, though we did from the Caribbean.) And while I’d love to have even more of a global perspective, I had to balance a lot of factors, and the end collection includes stories from Canada, First Nations in Canada, all over the US, the United Kingdom, Denmark, Belgium, Greece, Netherlands, Germany, Catalonia, and South Africa.

Now that’s where the writers were. Where were the characters? The locations chosen ranged from the basement to the top of the tower, including many specialty rooms, such as the Coat Check, the Janitor’s Closet, the Trash Bins, the Boiler Room, and the Switchboard. People even gave Stormcove a Conservatory, Sand Garden, Library, and Casino. One of my favorite things was how people started naming the suites and the lounges. I don’t want to reference people’s specific creative ideas here, but there was a Back Bar, Front Bar, Old Bar, Saloon, as well as Parlors, Cafés, Terraces, Verandas, and Clubs. The most popular locations by far were some variation of Ballroom or Bar, and some variation of Front Entrance, Lobby, and Check-in Desk. Both of these groupings each came in at about 15% each of the submissions. Around 7% of submissions were in the Kitchen or Restaurant. And around 5% were outside, which includes the grounds as well as in the cove itself. (One story, that I loved but did not select because we had so much great romance to choose from, took place on a boat.)

And with some exceptions, most of the others were in hallways, rooms, or suites. What fascinated me was the broad distribution of rooms selected. Very few rooms were used more than once, with Room 303 and 602 being the most popular choices. It amused me greatly (in a good way) that people would name the suites, in fact, 5% of submissions were located in a specifically named Luxury Suite, including the Honeymoon Suite. And, really, it was more than that, since many stories took place on various overlooks and verandas and I didn’t go parse out which of those were public vs. luxury spaces.

All of these numbers, I should say, are approximate, and only reflect the initial, formal submissions, not an additional grouping of rewrites and otherwise-considered stories. (There’s been a lot going on…)

Now, when, did stories occur? By year, we received submissions ranging from 10,000 BCE to (specifically) 3933. These did include some in alternate universes or timelines. What I was most happy to see was a full distribution of 20th century stories. I mean, I saw the 20s noir coming in, but was really happy to see stories in the 60s and 80s, for example. Ok, so this isn’t precise for a number of reasons (including that sometimes stories were a little more surreal and/or ambiguous as to whether they were on an alternate timeline) but the years submitted were roughly:

  • 5% Before 1900
  • 10% Early 20th Century
  • 20% Late 20th Century
  • 8% Post-Millennial
  • 28% Present Day
  • 25% 2020-2999
  • 4% 3000+ or Submitted Alternate Timeline

The stories occurring in earlier eras were more complicated to include for reasons I don’t want to fully parse here, and I’ve actually worked to address that through a separate effort, as I think adding that sense of Stormcove’s legacy is important. And you’ll be happy to know (at least I am) that in addition to some futuristic sci-fi, there are a couple of stunning far future pieces that really play organically on the concept of Stormcove. I’m also really happy to report that the distribution in the final collection of historic, present, and future is really well-balanced, with not too much meddling on my part.

So that’s by year. But these are five-minute snapshots, so what about time of day? Well, I can safely say things are going on at Stormcove all day and night. I was really happy to see how many times people selected and how broadly distributed they were. Stories were submitted really all across the day and night, and while it was a bit more common to be on or around a half-hour interval, they really did vary a lot. Writers, thank you for being delightfully thoughtful. Or random. Or both. It worked. : )

Overall, 2:30 – 8:30 PM was the most written-about time range. Sunrise (and to a lesser extent, Moonrise) were popular. The least popular times to write about were the couple of hours before sunrise and the time period just after noon. Which all makes sense. One sort of odd note is that I got the impression when an author really didn’t have a specific time in mind, they just put 10:00 AM. I suppose this was considered a quite generic time. And, of note, none of the 10:00 AM stories were included.

So, I think it’s safe to say that there is always something of interest going on at the Hotel Stormcove. And yes, those numbers are all based on the submissions, not the final product. As for the final product, while it doesn’t appear to stray too far from that distribution, I’d prefer to leave the exact mix for you to experience organically. Also, as much effort as I put into crafting a balanced collection, I did that at a higher-level, not through overengineering. I think that’s important. You know, the sauce should be balanced, but you should leave some lumps in it, too.

Regarding that balance, I was pleased by the diversity of background of the writers that submitted. I’m not going to get into statistics because we didn’t ask for background factors, we simply said we welcomed writers to tell us about them, if they wanted to. So, I can’t do much quantifying that would be accurate or even appropriate on demographics.

However, I can discuss two things of interest.

First, is gender, because we did ask for a writer’s pronouns, both as showing unequivocally that this project is a safe space for trans or gender non-conforming writers (and characters), but also as a practical matter of not having any misunderstandings in referring to people. We received about 20% more submissions from women than from men, and about 4% of total submissions were from people using they or ze pronouns. (I actually expect there were more submissions from non-binary authors; not everyone is ready or in a place to openly publish under a non-gendered pronoun.)

Second, is a more qualitative assessment, especially of the end publication. It was my goal to have a collection that reflected the diversity of the population, mostly as measured here in our part of the world. And by my rough estimates, we have done that across many key categories. I call it a multi-genre collection, but I also want that range reflected in many other factors that are reflected in the art. Different writers of different ages, backgrounds, perspectives, and writing styles, all coming together (yes, in the hotel) to present their art to an equally diverse reading audience. To me, that’s just…beautiful.

If you’re getting the sense that I’m really happy about the diversity of the collection, I am. It was pointed out to me by an expert on psychology that Hotel Stormcove reads as a metaphor for bringing people and art together, in a place where all are welcome. If I didn’t fully get that in the beginning, I get that now. And I embrace it. A lot of anthologies are curated to provide a level of consistency. The consistency that I curated was an undercurrent of refuge, support, and compassion toward each other, but I did not in any way look for stories that were the same in nature. Quite the opposite. I like having a theme to tie a collection together (a generic book of stories wouldn’t interest me as acutely) but yet I love the idea that each piece is a new surprise—a new perspective on that same theme. And I love lifting up all this beautiful art, putting it in front of people to experience and enjoy.

I hope you’ll enjoy reading these stories as much as I have been honored to read and curate them into one pretty…different…book.

And if you appreciate all that, and you’d like another way to support me as an author and an editor, I’ll be dishing some back-stage dish about Hotel Stormcove on March 1st to my Patreon community (subscriptions are $1/month and anyone wishing to support at a higher level can do so). If you sign up now, you won’t be charged for this month, and you can catch up on my own version of a Western Serial, Just Bart. Episode 05 will be posted on the 15th. And look, the Stormcove dish will still be respectful. For the more direct version, personal contact and beverages of some variety are required. : ) ‘Cause, yeah, it got weird too… but anyway.

If you’d like to help us spread the word about Five Minutes at Hotel Stormcove, people can pre-order the book in the paperback or limited-edition hardcover at the link below. The limited-edition hardcover will only be available as a pre-order, and each will be hand-numbered. The book will be on sale through standard retail outlets after its release (we’re aiming at May) but if you like what we’re doing and want to help out, the pre-orders help tremendously. (I’m way underwater on this collection, have invested a extensive amount of money and time into it, and whether or not we can at least break even will determine if I can do it again.) And in any shares, feel free to tag our accounts (Atthis Arts (@atthisarts on Twitter) or E.D.E. Bell) and use the hashtag #HotelStormcove.

https://hotel-stormcove.backerkit.com/hosted_preorders

Thanks for your time and support, and I hope to see you at the hotel!

Emily.

P.S. One final note to the writers who submitted. Remember, an editor doesn’t usually pick the best stories. They pick a selection of high-quality stories that creates an overall piece of art. So, if your story was not selected, there may be have been lots of different reasons for that. Don’t read into it, and don’t let it get you down. Keep writing.